COPYRIGHT : A NOVEL by LORI LESKO
“The
water can’t be any warmer. The doctor said warm baths only, nothing too
hot because it would be hard on your heart,” Karen said. We intertwined
together as she steadied me on my bathtub chair, newly purchased from a
medical supply store.
“I’m
cold,” I whined. But there was never any leeway with Karen. She’d
always been the tough one. When it came to the kids, she was the
disciplinarian, whereas I, on the other hand, was the eternal
adolescent. The Mommy who allowed her kids to get away with everything,
from having dessert before eating dinner, to turning a blind eye when
Danny smoked pot or snuck Alice out the front door first thing in the
morning. As far as I was concerned, they were sixteen; they were going
to have sex no matter what.
“Okay, babe, we’re done. How do you feel?”
“Tired,” I said and leaned into her. “Am I going to be this tired forever?”
“No. I promise you’ll get stronger.”
A
thirty-nine-year-old woman should not feel this old. Maybe my past had
slowly crept up on me? Hmm, forget slowly, it had sped toward me like a
freight train and I was tied to the tracks, helpless. As I shuffled back
toward my temporary bedroom, I saw Danny, Alice and Kira all standing
next to the sofa in the living room. Laid on the sofa adorned with a
shiny pink ribbon bow was a laptop.
“Look, Mommy, we got you a present!” Kira said, as she brought it to me.
“Wow!
Thank you guys! I missed my little machine so much!” I said excitedly. I
suddenly registered the color of the lid. Black. This wasn’t mine.
“Where is my laptop?” I questioned.
“Babe,
don’t you remember?” Karen asked. “It was destroyed when you spilled
your glass of lemonade on it.” She led me to the sofa and sat next to
me.
“Yeah,
Mom, I dropped it off at the Computer Max store and the tech guy said
the hard drive was fried, sorry.” Danny leaned over and planted a kiss
on my cheek. “But this one is way better! The memory and hard drive are
awesome, super-fast!”
Flabbergasted
and afraid to move, I went into a trance. Danny’s words barely
registered. It felt like I was having an out-of-body experience.
“Amber, what’s wrong, babe?” Karen asked.
Oh, nothing important, just all the work I’d done on my book had been lost. Spilling
a glass of lemonade had erased two whole years of my life. I didn’t
even enjoy lemonade, I preferred iced tea. I managed to lift my head up
and ask, “My book? I was working on a new book, it’s not here anymore?”
All of their mouths dropped opened. They all spoke at once, trying to reassure me that it would be okay.
“You saved your work to a disk, didn’t you?” Danny asked.
“What about your email? You email yourself copies don’t you?” Alice asked meekly.
“No, she never goes online,” Karen answered for me.
Kira
yanked on my sleeve. “What’s wrong, Mommy?” I looked down at her,
unable to communicate, and then back to Karen. Karen dashed upstairs to
my office.
“The papers!” Danny yelled and took off behind her.
I
heard the creaking of the floorboards as they moved from one room to
the next. Then silence. As they began the slow walk downstairs, I placed
my hands over my face, covering my eyes. I didn’t want to see their
expressions. Karen knelt on the floor in front of me.
“Is
this it?” Karen asked as she gently tugged at my hands. I opened my
eyes and saw a bundle of papers. I looked at the first few, and I
recognized them, they were my words. I had typed them.
“Yes,
this is my work,” I said. A huge sigh of relief came from the group. I
handed the papers back to Karen. “But it’s not the book I was working
on.” More silence followed. “This is The Lamp Burned Out. My last
book, it came out three years ago,” I mumbled. “Where is my new book? I
printed out the pages, you saw me do it every night, Karen!” The room
started to spin. Kira wept as she clung to me.
“Calm the fuck down,” Karen whispered to me. “What’s the title?”
“You
don’t know the title of her book?” Alice challenged Karen. I saw a
flash of rage develop as Karen’s mouth tightened, but then she
reluctantly forced a smile.
“No, Alice, I don’t know the title,” Karen said, as she flicked through the disordered pages.
“You
know Mom is crazy superstitious,” Danny added, trying to diffuse the
tension. “She never tells anyone about the subject matter or title until
the book is finished.”
I smiled up at Danny and Alice. Karen lifted her head and asked, “So, what’s the title, babe?”
“Brain Waves,”
I said. “It will be on the top right hand side of each paper.” Karen
bobbed her head and Alice offered to get us all a diet soda and a juice
box for Kira. Danny, Kira and I watched as Karen lifted page after page
from the huge stack. I realized then that there was more than one of my
novels in the stack of papers.
“Why
are all my manuscripts mixed up together?” I asked, curious, as I
always kept them in their own boxes. Years ago, Danny had made a wooden
box in school, and had given it to me to store my manuscripts in. It had
become a tradition now, and I had several of his handcrafted wooden
boxes in my office, each with drafts of each novel in them.
“When
the paramedics arrived to help you, there wasn’t much room in the
office and when they brought the stretcher in, they knocked the boxes
over. It was all so chaotic with the medics and papers shuffling all
around.” Karen looked up from her sorting, an apologetic smile on her
face. “Honestly, all I was concerned about at that time was you, babe.
Danny and Alice did their best to put them order, but they must still be
mixed together.”
I
calmed down then, happy that all of the papers must be there, because
the idea of my manuscript not being there was simply unthinkable. After
thirty minutes or so of Karen crisscrossing papers on top of each other
and making stacks of two of my novels; The Lamp Burned Out and Strawberries for Breakfast, she inhaled deeply.
“This is all I found of Brain Waves,”
Karen said, as she handed over what seemed like a minuscule stack of
papers. I grabbed them in disbelief. Though the pages were not in order,
I could tell that it wasn’t all there.
“Are
you sure this is all of the papers?” I asked. Karen’s eyes transformed
into a different shade of blue. Not the comforting navy or oceanic blue,
but an overwhelmingly dejected blue.
I
jumped up; my thoughts, and the room, were spinning. I staggered across
the room, and before I could think of the pain it would cause me, I got
to the bottom of the stairs and grabbed the handrail to pull myself up.
“Amber, what the hell are you doing?” Karen asked as she ran after me.
“I just have to take a look around. I won’t be long,” I replied.
“Mom, stop!” Danny yelled.
“The stairs are off limits, Amber, remember?” Karen added.
“Just
one minute,” I said breathlessly. I lifted my right foot onto the first
step and then I pulled hard on the rail for support. I managed to get
my left leg up the next step before Karen clutched hold of me.
“Goddamn it! Stop! Do you want to burst your sutures?”
I
looked around and saw her face. I watched Danny holding Kira’s hand
tightly, Alice by his side. Despondently, they all gazed at me.
“Step back down. Come on, I got you,” Karen said more softly. “We will get to the bottom of this, I promise you.”
“Yeah, Mom, we will,” Danny said with conviction.
I
slowly stepped backwards with Karen’s guidance. She then led me to my
bed. Beads of sweat had formed on my forehead; I was officially spent
for the day. My hands shook and I could feel my heart beating at a rapid
pace. I lay down and trusted that this too, shall pass. Karen lay next
to me. It felt so good to have another human body touching me again.
Kira crawled in, too. I closed my eyes and listened to Danny and Alice
out in the kitchen, quietly speaking. I had part of my manuscript. It
was better than nothing; I could fix it later. I drifted off to sleep,
encased by Kira and Karen.
Amber
Tyler is living every author’s dream: her books are all best sellers
and she writes full time. She has worked hard and is well-accomplished
in her career, and she has the support and love of her beautiful
children and girlfriend.
But the dream soon turns into a terrible nightmare when her latest manuscript is stolen. She decides to fight for what is rightfully hers, only to find that the harder she tries, the easier it all slips through her fingers, putting her career, her family, and her life in jeopardy.
But the dream soon turns into a terrible nightmare when her latest manuscript is stolen. She decides to fight for what is rightfully hers, only to find that the harder she tries, the easier it all slips through her fingers, putting her career, her family, and her life in jeopardy.
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Genre – Thriller
Rating – PG-13
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